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THOUGHTS & INTROSPECT

NB: This is going to be a jumbled read. Beloved, I hope I wont lose you in this maze!!! Dealing with grief is never  easy  I have been  down in a bottomless pit All I feel is darkness and emptiness Emotions all over, I wail from time to time. Easy Breakdown? Is this the new me. I ponder. I don't wanna dress up or do any make up. Just get up bath and be basic is my new instinct. The back of my mind reminds me that I should write a blog but I fail. I postpone.  I just wanna hide  and be far from the madding crowd. The loss, the pain, the drama and the emotional burden. I feel like I can never revert to normal. Can I just default back to my normal?? I drink, I smoke but does that take away the sad reality. I lied to myself  that I am a composed being, Everyone surely does have a breaking point. This entry has been in the drafts for a whooping three months. Procrastination has became the story of my life😕. I am struggling with deadlines anyway. Go well my darlings, you have made me lo